The Girl Who Broke My Heart

Actually There Were Two Mean Girls Who Broke My Heart

 

Let's take a trip back to high school

Ugh

Like many people, I experienced the brunt of a couple of 

Mean Girl antics

They were really cruel, actually.

 These weren't the typical loser girls

They were actually quite smart

One became an international lawyer

the other has argued cases in front of the supreme court

But they were mean

Excruciatingly mean to me

Granted, I was a bit too serious

and I was a bit too anal at the time

but I was also quite vulnerable and naive 

and they took advantage of this

I only remember the two of them being mean.

 

The rest of the people in high school were mostly nice or at least neutral towards me

Interestingly, since graduating 20 some odd years ago

I've received two apologies from two different classmates

Neither of whom were these two Mean Girls

I was not ever expecting an apology from these two girls

That would mean they were self-aware enough

to know how mean they were

which they aren't

But,

I was not expecting apologies out of the blue

from people I didn't think treated me "so" badly

Several years ago, when Classmates.com was more popular than Facebook

I received a long apology note from a classmate

whom I barely remembered

She said the way she had treated me had bothered her for years

and was happy to have found me online

so that she could apologize

I assured her that I did not recall her being mean

and that it was nice of her to remember me.

Yesterday, 

I received another email from someone who said he was surprised I reconnected through Linked In

after the way he treated me kind of poorly in high school

In reality,

I remember him as being quite nice.

I am thinking that the  two Mean Girls were just so awful

I blotted out all memories of others being slightly mean to me

or

people are apologizing for no reason

It kind of makes me feel odd, actually.

Was I really treated so badly in high school that I've now blocked out the memories?

That's just sad.

Anyway - I'll definitely post here first if I ever hear from those two Mean Girls

Sadly, even thinking about them and what they did the last week of high school to me STILL makes me sad and angry

I do forgive them - but I am also hoping they have changed and at some point realize what they did and how that action affected another person's life for years.

I am sure this painting is about a girl who broke some boy's heart

Enjoy it at www.unconsciousoncanvas.com

 or buy a giclee to keep at home

However, the painting reminds me of me

(only because the two Mean Girls were blond and I'm not)

and the title just makes me think how they broke my heart at the time

As always, comments welcome!

Toodles,

Binky